An amazing day for a rant.

I just finished watching an amazing show called: If you really knew me. It was beyond amazing. It inspires me every time I see show, movies, songs, books, and people trying to save high schools from cliques, bullies, race, sexuality, body type, and academics.
My senior year in high school, my school was a part of a program called Friends of Rachel. It was an amazing program that thought stories about an ordinary girl wanting to change the world, but her life was ended before she ever fully understood the changes she was going to make on kids around the world. If you want more information about Rachel’s Story. Here is a link (http://www.rachelschallenge.org/)
to their website and the organization also has a MySpace page.
Also today I enjoyed a wonderful episode of Pretty Little Liars! It is my new all time fave show. But before all the crying and trying to figure out the mystery that Hanna, Emily, Spencer, and Aria, had me glued to the TV for, I spent the day with my wonderful Boyfriend, Joe.
We went to Joe’s grandmother’s house and spent the day with her. I love feisty old ppl, they make being old fun. We also had lunch at Ezell’s. If you are ever in Lower Alabama, You MUST get directions to Ezell’s Fish Camp. Amazing SEAFOOD!

Enough about my day, I just want to get a few things off my chest.
1. I really hope Joe takes this job where he will be travelling and making good money, bc within the next two years I want to get married and start a family.
2. I really hope I get this job at the bank. I don’t want to be stuck working at my family’s business the rest Of my life, guessing if I’m going to get a paycheck this week, or hoping we made enough money to give me a check to cover all my bills. I want security. I want to be able to put money up and save for my future. I want to be able to rely on me and not anyone else until the day I get married. I don’t want to work at a grocery store the rest of my life making minimum wage. I want to live and have freedom. I want to have an education I can use.

3. I feel like I’m losing my best friends. I don’t see them often. They or I never text or talk. And if I see them it is only for a few minutes a week.

4. I’m tired at sitting a home and on having money. It is an awful feeling. Joe says he knows how I feel but I don’t like he does. He knows what it is like to not have money, but he does make money to pay his bill and then be guaranteed to get a pay check.
Ugh. Thank you for letting my rant. I have faith that all things will work out but I just had to get that out of my head.

A few things to none.

So today wasn’t that great. Well I take that back. It kinda was. I got up and took a shower went to the school and registered for 3 of the 4 classes that I need. I have to go back in 2 weeks and take a placement test for my math class.

After going to the college, I went to lunch with my mom.

Then I went home changed clothes and went to Demopolis for a Teller Assessment Test. I hope I passed it. It was tougher than I thought it was going to be. There were 2 other girls that took the test with me. They were having a hard time with it to.

So that you understand me a little. I should tell you a few things about me.

1. I like how it smells after it rains.
2. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up...
3. I REALLY enjoy school.
4. I have a half brother that I haven't talked to in over 2 years.
5. I love my family and friends.
6. Halloween is my favorite holiday.
7. My favorite TV. show is GLEE and Pretty Little Liars.
8. I love Tommy Joe Haskew...even if he is a pain sometimes.
9. There are things that I wish I could do over.
10. I'm scared to ask questions.
11. I love hanging out with my parents.
12. I much rather read a book then do anything else.
13. I'm addicted to frozen yogurt and movies...and movie posters.
14. I like to dream of things that I know I could never do or have.
15. I sing in the car at the top of my lungs when I'm alone..lol
16. I hate to wear shoes...most of the time I'm in flip flops.
17. I love the winter.
18. I want to move to Alaska one day.
19. I LOVE to drive on the interstate.
20. There is always a running dialog in my mind at all times...kind of weird huh?
21. I have one sister...Heather.
22. I was born in October.
23. I'm infatuated with card games and black and white photos.
24. I love the colors red, black, white, fuchsia, and lime green.
25. I'm addicted to polka dots and my name.
26. I love looking at the stars.
27. My fave saying is: Its like SCREAMING at the sky. The stars have no ears, and besides, they are too far away to hear. They just keep on SHINING.
28. People tend to think they can walk over me. Well I have a temper.
29. For some reason ppl trust me with there secrets…guess what? At times that isn’t a good thing.
30. I want to write a book based on those secrets and the secrets of the small town that I live in. Some of them are pretty hard to belive.
31. I'm addicted to texting.
32. I like to be different and I speak my mind.

If there is anything you want to know. Just ask. I’m an opened person. I will answer all questions honestly. But don’t ask anything you wouldn’t answer.

Cupcake anyone?!?

I’m so disappointed in my life right now. I feel as though how things are going to be.
My mom asked me tonight what I wanted to go to school for. And I told her I didn’t know. I couldn’t go for radiology because I don’t have to money to go to USA.
I really wouldn’t mind going to culinary school, but once again I don’t have to money.
I want to be a pastry chef and open my own bakery. That would be amazing…what do you think?
But who knows.

One HOT Mama!!!

It has been pretty exciting today at my house and last night too. My dad and I were in the computer room, when we started smelling something burning. Dad thought it was the computer. So we unplugged everything and the smell got worse. Come to find out it was the air-conditioner. The drainage pipe is stopped up and the water was backing up into the unit and all the ducts. So we turn it off and dad started sucking the water out with the wet vac. The water just kept filling back up. no A/C in my house last night. This morning my dad called Air-Masters to come out and look at it. That was at 7:30 this morning and they just arrived at 3:00 this afternoon. It took them about 20 minutes to fix the problem. But it is so hot in the house I’m still sweating and it is 93 degrees outside.
To a an eventful day!

A little at first.

Ok. So you want to know my story. Well there isn’t much to tell. But I do have one.
My life everyday is a struggle; from weight to boyfriend to friends and family. That is just the life that people see.
Inside there are days that I wonder what I’m here for. Why was I put on earth? What am I suppose to do with my life?
You only get one life…make use of it. Well how? That is my question. If I was rich, I would say that I’m on a journey to find myself while travelling the world. But I’m not rich and at the moment stationary.
I’m a full time student... who isn’t sure what I’m doing. I live in a small town and will be stuck here until I graduate college. From what I see that will be a while and then I’m not guaranteed a way out.
So. My story? It is a little slow going. If you can bare with me, I will tell you about my life. Trust me this isn’t one of those sad stories with a happy end that you read about in books or learn about on the news. This is an unknown story that has a lot of twist and turns that will keep you laughing, crying, hating, loving and wondering…
Are you up for the challenge?
I am.

the 1st

I will be back later after Pretty Little Liars goes off...and then I will tell you my story.