Life has its way...

Wow it has been so long since I wrote anything at all.

Thing here lately have been crazy.

Between family, school, work and love my heart and mind is give out.

The is some points in the day that I catch myself thinking about it all, and all I want to do is cry.

Let’s see if I can break this down for you.

Family:
My Uncle Rusty was diagnosed with cancer at the end of August.
The name of the cancer is Malignant Fibrous Histiocytoma Sarcoma. It is kind of rare.
He has been doing radiation and chemo since the beginning of September.
He only has 5 more treatments left. They are hoping to be able to go in and remove the tumor after he finishes all his treatments.

Then Saturday, my family finds out that one of our cousins is missing. He was down at the river with some friends and he slipped on some rocks and fell in to the water. They searched Saturday afternoon, night, Sunday morning and afternoon. They finally recovered his body. They are staying that after he fell into the water he drowned and was taken down stream due to the lock and dam. It is a very sad time for the Robertson family. Little Roy left behind 3 sisters, 2 brothers, 3 nieces, 2 and a half nephew, 1 son, his girlfriend and his parents. And plus all of his outlying family. He will be missed. His funeral is scheduled for Thursday at 2 at O’Bryant Funeral Home.

School:

Well I had to drop one of my classes b/c I couldn’t afford to buy the software I need for the class. And I probably won’t be going next semester because my family cannot afford to pay my tuition.

So I’m really stressed out about all of that.

Work:

I just started a new job. I only work about 12 hours a week and get minimum wage. It is pretty rough. But I really like the job. I just need to save some money to buy some new clothes and a better pair of shoes to ware to work. But hopefully some stuff will die down and I can afford to.

I guess that is all for tonight. Thank you for listening to me and

Thank you for reading my blog. Leave me some feedback.

Love you all!

BIRTHDAY WEEK!

Wow…I have been needing to write. But I just haven’t had the chance.

I turned 21 Saturday!!!!!…But I still haven’t bought any alcohol. I was thinking about buying some tomorrow and have margarita night at the house.

That probably won’t happen.

Well this weekend was pretty great. I got to see family that I hadn’t seen in YEARS!. I really enjoyed seeing them. We had a family cookout and it went well. We had a lot of family members show up. Some couldn’t make it but that is understandable.

After the cookout I had to go to work. I started my job about 1 week ago. I’m really enjoying it. At first, I thought I couldn’t handle it but I think I’m doing well. It is fun helping ppl and my co-workers are great.

After work I went to Fulton’s Annual Singing. I got there and everyone yep coming up to me and telling my happy birthday and I didn’t think anything about it. I just kept telling everyone thank you. Well just about the time I saw Mrs. Teresa, The band started singing Happy Birthday to me in front of everyone. I was so cool. Even thought my feet were killing me and I didn’t fell good. My Birthday ended well.

My weekend was pretty great.

But my week…that is a totally different story. I had to drop my accounting class because I couldn’t get the code I needed for the class. And I kind of feel bad for dropping it but I had no other choice.

But on the up side, I got to dog sit for my grandmother today. I had fun until the puppy started to do her “business” in the living room. She got a spanking for that 3 times today. I took her out about 4 different times and she would come back inside to do the her “business.” It made me sooo mad! Dad took her home about 3.

I have been kind of lost since then. I normally baby-sit in the afternoons but I got a call this morning telling me that I didn’t need to go pick up the kids from school. So this afternoon has been kind of quite and boring compared to the usual loud yelling, laughing, hustle and bustle that it usually is in the afternoons after school.

On one hand I was bored but on the other I was kind if glad. I need a day off. I have work for 4 straight days and was needing some time off.

Oh…well. Now I’m not sure what to write about. I’m kind of still lost. I’m not use to being home on a Monday night. I really should be doing the outline for my religion research paper…but I’m not.

So I will let you all go. I hope you enjoy the rest of your week.

Well another crappy day!

Saturday September 18, 2010:

7:00am…Up and getting ready to go to Mobile with Joe to buy him clothes for work.

8:00…Joe is standing in the door of my bathroom telling me to hurry up and I’m was not in the best of mood as it is.

8:15…We are on the road to Mobile.

9:50… We are pulling up at JCPenny’s

10:35…We are leaving JCP and headed home..or so I thought. Joe decides that he wants to go eat at Logan’s road house. Well they don’t open until 11:00…so that is a 20 minute wait. So we sit in the parking lot of Logan’s because Joe doesn’t want to go in anymore stores.

11:00 We walk in Logan’s. Joe asked the Lady if they take Checks..and OF COURSE they DON’T…this is 2010. Who doesn’t have a DEBT CARD????…well that would be JOE!!!!!!!!!!!

11:01…We are walking back to the truck and is headed to Thomasville.

11:20…Joe’s dad calls him and starts fussing about something and Joe misses BOTH exits to Creola.

11:35…I get a text message from my cousin telling me that Granny's dog, Baxter, died and that I needed to go to the cleaners and check on Granny…

I’m on the FREAKING interstate in MOBILE…and is headed to Atmore…b/c my BF missed the damn exit…HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO GO TO THE CLEANERS?
WHY THE HELL ARE WE GOING TO ATMORE?
UGHHHHHHH!

After getting up with my dad and sister...I don't say a word until we reach our exit...Joe didn't either.

12:35…We exit in Atmore….

12:45…We are behind a LONG funeral precession.

1:40…We FINALLY make it home.

2:45… My cousin comes by to get a ladder and dad gets ready for the horse show.

3:30…Me and my dad are at the arena.

3:35…I’m on my way to the store to buy things we forgot and to pick up my sister.

4:05- 7:00…We are at the arena. We work in the concession stand. The horse show starts late and I miss Maribeth ride b/c I have to leave early.

7:00…Jenny comes to the arena to get me and we go meet Joe and Kori at the Grill for mine and Jenny’s joint b-day supper.

8:00- 9:00…We head to Super Foods parking lot… We sit and talk to a bunch of friends.

9:00-9:45…We have to go to walmart b/c Joe and I forgot to buy him shoes and socks for work.

10:00… I’m at home…I go to bed.

This day SUCKED also….

There are times like these that I wish there was an easy button!

There are times like these that I wish there was an easy button.

Friday September 17, 2010:

6:30-8:59…I woke up at 6:30 am to go do some paperwork for the new job I’m getting.
it was simple stuff and it only took about an hour.

9:00-12:30…So when I go home I took a Lortab (I have been having really bad back pain for a while), and I went to sleep until I had to go pick up my cousins from school.

2:00-3:00… After sitting in my truck for an hour in 98 degree heat, I finally get Maribeth and Keegan for school and we head home. I help Maribeth with homework and try to keep Keegan from tearing down half the house. We made cookies and brownies for the horse show.

4:00…Mom decides that she is going out of town and she wouldn’t be back until Sunday. I was like ok whatever. But then I learned that I had to go do the errands she was suppose to do for the horse that following night. Plus I was supposed to be getting ready to go eat with a group of my friends at Lilly’s around 6 that evening.

6:00… Joe comes and picks me up and we head to Lilly’s.

6:15…Arrives at Lilly’s, they are packed.

6:35….We are finally seated with 6 of our close friends.

6:50…Our order gets taken and drinks are brought to our table. Also tow more friends show up to eat with us.

7:45…We get our appetizers….yep that is right 7:45!!!

8:00... We finally get our food…Mine was not good.

8:35…We walk out of Lilly’s and we are $31 poorer than when we entered at 6:35….

8:40... We end up going to Tiff and Big’s house instead of going to watch Vampires Suck…at this point I’m NOT a happy Camper.

11:00…Joe takes me home.

11:30…I’m in bed asleep.

My day did not go as planned and I really HATED that!

Baby Sitting

I have started babysitting my little cousins after school until their mom get's off work.

In the afternoon, they finish their home work and get a snack and when they are finished we start a craft project.

Here are some pictures of the things we have been doing :

Thing that can’t be said.

Ok so there are some things I cannot talk about on my blog but I so wished I could.

I need to let things out but I'm scared of what ppl are going to say.

I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.

Anyways. So how was everybody's week so far?

Mine was not great as I post last night but I am thankful to have wonder friends I can talk to.

And a wonderful boyfriend!

So on a lighter note, I have a song that I have to share that I wrote about 2 years ago…maybe 3 years ago.
But if you hate…don't tell me. If you like it, then you can tell me. But don't lie!

Friday Night


Five minute to kick off or the dirt road
Jump in the Chevy and here we go
Hunting House dirt road here we come
Grab the whole gang and take a beer run

Friday night football games or going out with the MRA
Mud Riding Association for us small town kids
A place where Fords, Chevys and Toyotas are all alike
Stirring up trouble, slingin some mud, we know how to do it right

Chorus: Its time to play, load up, strap it, here we go again
Play callin, mud slingin, hard hitting, stuck is what we're gettin
No time outs, No giving up, Just having some fun
Out on the dirt road, down at the field, Friday night is here

No matter if it is a bulldog or a big bear were facing
Me and the MRA will be in our field playin
Tires spinnin, touchdown, we did it.
Friday night, we're winning

Chorus: Its time to play, load up, strap it, here we go again
Play callin, mud slingin, hard hitting, stuck is what we're gettin
No time outs, No giving up, Just having some fun
Out on the dirt road, down at the field, Friday night is here

Red Clay, Full tanks, and all the time in the world
Trucks fixed up, load down heading for the game
A little detour by that dirt road scene
Our Friday night out won't be clean

Chorus: Its time to play, load up, strap it, here we go again
Play callin, mud slingin, hard hitting, stuck is what we're gettin
No time outs, No giving up, Just having some fun
out on the dirt road, down at the field, Friday Night is here

It's game time, it's play time

It's Friday night.

Just a short thank you!

The last few days have been crazy. CRAZY!.There was a little bit of crying, yelling, loving and a ton of TV watching...Oh and that is only Monday.

But to have a crappy week, I'm having a good night. I'm getting to talk to a good friend who thinks I might be a LITTLE crazy but I know that he is always going to be there for me.

No matter how bad my day, week, month, or even year is, I know I can talk to this one person and everything goes away. It is amazing.

Thank you for everything.
There are days I couldn't function without talking to you.

I love the convos we have. They are funny, serious, amazing, crazy, and at times, will run until 4 in the morning.

Thank you again. No matter what I'm here for you too.