Ok so there are some things I cannot talk about on my blog but I so wished I could.
I need to let things out but I'm scared of what ppl are going to say.
I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.
Anyways. So how was everybody's week so far?
Mine was not great as I post last night but I am thankful to have wonder friends I can talk to.
And a wonderful boyfriend!
So on a lighter note, I have a song that I have to share that I wrote about 2 years ago…maybe 3 years ago.
But if you hate…don't tell me. If you like it, then you can tell me. But don't lie!
Friday Night
Five minute to kick off or the dirt road
Jump in the Chevy and here we go
Hunting House dirt road here we come
Grab the whole gang and take a beer run
Friday night football games or going out with the MRA
Mud Riding Association for us small town kids
A place where Fords, Chevys and Toyotas are all alike
Stirring up trouble, slingin some mud, we know how to do it right
Chorus: Its time to play, load up, strap it, here we go again
Play callin, mud slingin, hard hitting, stuck is what we're gettin
No time outs, No giving up, Just having some fun
Out on the dirt road, down at the field, Friday night is here
No matter if it is a bulldog or a big bear were facing
Me and the MRA will be in our field playin
Tires spinnin, touchdown, we did it.
Friday night, we're winning
Chorus: Its time to play, load up, strap it, here we go again
Play callin, mud slingin, hard hitting, stuck is what we're gettin
No time outs, No giving up, Just having some fun
Out on the dirt road, down at the field, Friday night is here
Red Clay, Full tanks, and all the time in the world
Trucks fixed up, load down heading for the game
A little detour by that dirt road scene
Our Friday night out won't be clean
Chorus: Its time to play, load up, strap it, here we go again
Play callin, mud slingin, hard hitting, stuck is what we're gettin
No time outs, No giving up, Just having some fun
out on the dirt road, down at the field, Friday Night is here
It's game time, it's play time
It's Friday night.
The last few days have been crazy. CRAZY!.There was a little bit of crying, yelling, loving and a ton of TV watching...Oh and that is only Monday.
But to have a crappy week, I'm having a good night. I'm getting to talk to a good friend who thinks I might be a LITTLE crazy but I know that he is always going to be there for me.
No matter how bad my day, week, month, or even year is, I know I can talk to this one person and everything goes away. It is amazing.
Thank you for everything.
There are days I couldn't function without talking to you.
I love the convos we have. They are funny, serious, amazing, crazy, and at times, will run until 4 in the morning.
Thank you again. No matter what I'm here for you too.
I wanted to share with you a poem that I wrote a while back...a little sneak preview.
So tell me your thoughts.
If you need my email address here it is.
dunncearra@rocketmail.com.
Feel free to email me when ever you want.
A Night to You
The moon rises as I think of you
My dreams are filled with your image
As I wake, I long for your touch
Once the sun rise, you're my world
I try to focus on the day as I think about you
I follow my schedule with happiness knowing you are my highlight
Leaving my hell hole, and entering heaven, you are near
Home is my rescue, knowing you are there
As the sun fades you are at my side
I'm engulfed in your touch
I'm enchanted by your smell
Your words are like chocolate, sweet and smooth
Your eyes look into my soul
Your kisses steal my heart
The moon rises as I enjoy you.
There are days....I think I said that yesterday.
Oh well...
Today my family found out that my uncle has cancer.
The doctors are hoping that the cancer is contained inside the tumor that
is on his back.
My mom was devastated.
We all are hoping for the best.
It is tough to see your family members going throw things such as this and you feel as if there is nothing you can do.
But I feel we can do something. We can pray.
I love you Uncle Rusty. Be strong.
There are times I feel like I’m alone.
Like there is no one else feeling the things I feel.
There is no one else going through the things I’m going through.
Feeling the things I feel.
I wish there was one person who would stay in my life forever and never leave me with the ppl that are in my life.
They are the ones that make me feel like I’m alone. Like I can’t say anything, like I can’t breathe, talk, walk, and even think right at times.
I try to stay out of everyone’s way. I try to please them. I try to be the good daughter, friend, and girlfriend. But some days no matter what I do I feel like I have failed them all.
But I think they are the ones that failed me. They are the ones who can’t think, breathe, feel, or walk right. They are the one who should feel bad. They are the one who should be crying and feeling alone. Not me. I shouldn’t. I haven’t done anything wrong.
Only thing I have done is try to please everyone.
That is the only thing I have done wrong.
